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I know that by posting this, I am going to lose a lot of my followers and people are going to send me hate messages, but I really don’t care. I’m not trying to shove my view down everyone’s throat, I’m just looking to show people why I believe what I believe. If you really dislike what I’m saying, by all means, send me messages. But all I’m asking is that you take the time and read this before you start sending me stuff. Please don’t take any of this to heart if this is the exact opposite of what you believe.

I am agnostic, but I do believe in God. I used to be Roman Catholic, but now I just don’t believe that the Catholic church is right in the aspect that God loves you less if you are homosexual or have sex before you’re married or made mistakes in your life. My belief is that if there really is a God, he loves everyone, despite what is considered “wrong” in society. I don’t think that having to go to a holy figure to ask for forgiveness is necessary. I think that if you really believe in God and feel bad about doing something, you don’t need a middleman, you should “ask” him yourself. I also believe that if you want to believe in more than one god or work to reach nirvana, by all means, go for it. I like to think that if there is something greater watching over us, they would accept the fact that people on earth are different.

What bothers me is when people ask why I wear a cross if I am agnostic. There are different types of it. Some people won’t believe something until there’s proof, others believe in a certain religion but won’t commit to it because of certain aspects, just like me.

I got my cross at my First Communion when I was in 2nd grade. I’ve worn it since. It’s just something I do. It was a part of me back then and it always will be. If I decide to believe in the Greek or Roman gods or Buddha, maybe I’ll get another charm for my necklace.

The cross is staying. Please don’t tell me I am unworthy of wearing it when you have no idea what my beliefs are.

I was talking to my boyfriend last night and he was saying that there’s something about his past that I should know, but he was afraid of how I would react. In short, he thought I would leave him over it.

So after asking him for about 20 minutes to tell me because nothing would make me leave him, he finally told me.

If I went back in time and got the Kaitlin from, say, a year ago, I probably would have freaked out and ran because I was an immature, whiny bitch. But I actually responded rationally. I had told him that it was his past and that nothing he did in it would change how I feel about him today. I mean, after all, it’s his past. It made him the person that I have these strong feelings for. Who would I be to hold it against him?

I was so excited that I reacted rationally, that I told Dustin my response. He freaked out about it and was like “I am so proud. :3”

However, I did think it was kind of cute that Jake was worried about how I would respond.

My therapist, Sam, is starting an anti-bullying program at my high school. I’m a big part of it and I really hope it goes well. The one thing I’m afraid of though is that people will make fun of the members of the group instead of supporting it. I know I really don’t care what people think about me, but the other members of the group might not feel the same way.

I just know that some of the people in my school are too “cool” to support things like this. I’m just really hoping that this group will make a difference in our school.

Some of the shit on Tumblr is ticking me off. Now, you’d assume I’d be talking about the people that say “omg im so hardc0re i cut evry night follow 4 follow!!!1!111!!!” but I’m not.

A lot of the people I follow have really nice blogs, but they post and reblog these little “lessons” that people, mostly girls, should know. The majority of them only apply to certain situations and people think of it of something they should live by, and that’s not right.

One of those posts about Tumblr that royally ticks me off is the posting I see about how girls should be skinny to be happy. There are all these blogs talking about being skinny and how much better your life would be if you were. You do not need to be skinny to be happy. You need to be confident and comfortable in your body. If you want to lose some weight, by all means, go for it if it’s a realistic goal. That doesn’t mean that you need to be a 00 to be happy with your life. To be happy with yourself, the best thing to do is to think of all the good things about you and when someone calls you a name or makes fun of you for something, ignore it. Most of the time, they aren’t even thinking about what they say, therefore it doesn’t matter.

Those are some pretty big things that I’ve learned over the past three years. Don’t take what someone else says and live by it. I don’t care what “social level” they are on or what “clique” they’re in, chances are, they don’t know what they’re talking about and don’t realize what they say affects other people the way it does.